Lyrics

P6040299BAll lyrics by Monique van der Kolk

AUTUMN LEAVES
You hold the door and let me in
Inside your garden feathery shapes
Raise their wings fly away.
You feel my skin I hold my breath
Gasping for an inch of air
In newborn waves
Everywhere I go you are on my mind
Gotta take it slow even though I try
Noone else but you
Summer clouds draw a path
Right through the autumn leaves
From the highest heights they fall on the water
Autumn leaves halfway August
When the ocean is between us
Days apart miles away still no distance
On the road peace of mind
Yearning's taking over us
Catch me when I fall
The day has gone night is long
In your arms I fall asleep
Don't wake me tomorrow
Everywhere I go you are on my mind
Gotta take it slow even though I try
Noone else but you
Summer clouds draw a path
Right through the autumn leaves
From the highest heights they fall on the water
Autumn leaves halfway August
When the ocean is between us
Days apart miles away still no distance
BEYOND THE DESERT
The sky was yours
The sky was mine
Sun is cold
Clouds are dry
Stumbling over frozen love I watch the world I have above
Wondering why you took away the ground under my feet
Hanging on the strings you hold, watch them fade as I grow old
I wonder why you had the urge to step out of the light
The sea was deep
The sea was blue
Islands sank
So did you
My sea has no tides…
Protect myself from stinging sand look down at my empty hands
Wondering why I didn't search for shelter over my head
waiting for the rain to fall I need to rinse away the soil
I wonder how I could ever lose direction by following stars
The desert is wide
The desert is seared
Illusions dwell
Must say farewell

NO RETURN
It's time to start over, once again
I have arrived at the point of no return
This is the end
Alone again
I need a place to rest my head, have to drag myself out of this bed
I have no love
You're gone again
I'm drifting on a long lost memory, it's time to leave behind the armoury
And find some rest
On my own again
THE STORY OF TIM BALLAS
The man beneath the clouds
Was wandering alone
Didn’t know his desires
All he ever lived for
Vanished in one day
Didn’t know how to handle
On a dark and cold spring night he started to run
Got lost in a sea stream
All his memories burned
Swept away by the power of a false helping hand
Now he’s no one, just one lost soul in space
Floating through corners of his mind
Nothing that takes him back to who he was
Caught up inside her golden cage
Playing the game of life
Now the years have passed
Everything’s a lie
But he knows he is sentenced
Every now and then
He dreams of how things were
But he knows that is past tense
So he made a decision he wanted to smile
Needed something worth fighting
A new born life
Swept away by the power of a tiny child’s hand
Now he’s someone, still one lost soul in space
Floating through corners of his mind
Nothing that takes him back to who he was
Caught up inside her golden cage
Playing the game of life
Sometimes he wakes op and finds himself
In a strange situation he never thought would be
When people around look in his eyes
They just see an empty life
MARA
Looking in the mirror of your eyes
Tell me am I an angel in disguise?
I can tell you dread what you don’t see
But I won’t show you the real me
Don’t struggle now you are mine
I have the power and you’re paralyzed
Don’t speak using words is a misuse
Of breath you’ll need until your death
Possessed by temporary madness
A beating heart bangs on your chest
Nothing you can do no one will hear
It’s only me who can smell the fear
Panic’s weight leans on your back
A shivering touch nails in your neck
Don’t defend using strength is a misuse
Of breath you’ll need until your death
You can run as hard as you want
But I will always catch up
Wishing to escape from desires’ hands
Knowing there will be no second chance
Don’t look back or you will fall
Let me say this is your last trial
Why don’t you give into this fate?
And I’ll show you the corners of space
Don’t hesitate cause to doubt is a misuse
Of breath you’ll need until your death
You can run as hard as you want
But I will always catch up
Leave you with no sin
Show the fire burning within
Close your eyes and rest
I’ll be your nocturnal guest
CHANGE LIFE
Stop in the middle of two worlds
Llight a cigarette
Smoke becomes one with the fumes on the left
Where speed limit is crossed
By thousands who don't want to be late
For whatever's waiting, whoever's waiting.
While rearview mirrors show thousands of tired faces
Always rushing though never arriving somewhere
No sense in being a part of this all
Make a choice this might be a last call
Hands of time never stop...
Life seems so much easier on the other side
In a carefree paralell universe
Turn around, live life on the right
Turn around, live from day to day
Turn around, no more sleepless nights
Turn around, no more shades of gray
See the path to follow, cut the leash!
Feel the sunlight embracing ice-cold skin!
Hear the sounds of silence through the trees!
Scent of green grass is calling!
Start the engine
Leave the layby
And drive back to the highway...
POST DISASTER
The night throws a shadow over land
The moon is covered with a veil of smoke
Children play in de dark while mothers cry
Children play in the park while brothers die
A fire’s still burning on ash
The sky is black as hell
Rain won’t wash pain away
I can dream of a better place...
THE HORIZON
Got a dark cloud in my pocket
There's a stone inside my shoe
And a fire is burning on the road.
Should I turn or should I follow
I see the signs but read no words
Headlights on the other side are blurring my view
When looking back over my shoulder scattered dreams decay
Confusing echoes resound against iron walls
Still I move on and won't stop this journey to the future
No matter how high the fall wings grow stronger
Seems I'm always swimming upstream
Current slits remembering
windspeed eight is aiming at my heart
Did I turn or did I follow?
Prints I left are overlayed
It doesn't matter anymore
I won't look back
Black and white snapshots languish, unsent letters crumble
Spoken words of hope have lost all of their meaning
So I move on and won't stop, this journey to the future
No matter how high the fall wings grow stronger
Won't stop to look at scattered dreams, will look forward to the horizon
SHE TRIES
If you watch her carefully there is so much you can see
Hidden anger, concealed sadness emotions needing to be suppressed
At times the finish gets off track because it's so easy to fall back
Her limbs become weight of concrete because reminding him is so sweet
She tries to find her place
So she sets for another destiny in search for relief of agony
Trading the tears for a half smile hoping she won't be noticed for a while
She tries to find her place to get her through the days…
NIGHT COMES DOWN
I'm the one who should look at you through the rays of light at the morning ritual
But instead I find myself searching for a meaningless reason why I am not
Your harsh voice and your cruel words put an end to an impossible dream
I once dreamed of you and me
Your lips touched my hand
I cannot understand
Your presence lingers when the night comes down on these narrow streets where we once hid
Nights are never ending, reveries keep me from sleeping, won't allow me to take off tomorrow.
Days become weeks but time won't stop the gap from being a constant stalker
I'm sick of being followed
At the end of this day
All dreams will drown when the night comes down
INTERRUPTED BROADCAST
Behind the white noise there's a whole new world
Waiting, aiming
A drug for innocent minds luring to decay
Waiting, claiming
Is the mind scanning the idiot box?
Or does the box scan the idiot mind?
Perfect examples of how things shouldn't be
Welcome to the new school
Careless shituations
Sex at five pm
Brainfarts stain the screen
Open-heart surgeries
Violent animation
This is today's education
Toxic explosions infect childhood
Virtual existence absorbs imagination
Wrong ideas are given to kill spare time
Careless shituations
Sex at five pm
Brainfarts stain the screen
Open-heart surgeries
Violent animation
This is today's education
Detachment from reality
Disconnected from society
Braindead is leading new life
No social activity
Absolute passivity
Braindead is leading new life